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Saturday, February 11th, 2006

Time:11:08 pm.
BLUES are motivated by INTIMACY, seek opportunities

to genuinely connect with others, and need to

be appreciated. They do everything with

quality and are devoted and loyal friends and

employers/employees. Whatever or whomever

they commit to are their sole (and soul)

focus. They love to serve and will give

freely of themselves in order to nurture

others lives.

BLUES, however, do need to be understood. They have

distinct preferences and occasionally the

somewhat controlling (but always fair)

personality of a confident leader. Their code

of ethics is remarkably strong and they

expect others to live honest, committed lives

as well. They enjoy sharing meaningful

moments in conversation as well as

remembering special life events (i.e.,

birthdays and anniversaries). BLUES are

dependable, thoughtful, nurturing, and can

also be self-righteous, a bit worry-prone,

and emotionally intense. They are like

sainted pit-bulls who never let go of

something once they are committed. When you

deal with a BLUE, be sincere, make an effort

to truly understand them, and truly

appreciate them.

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Sunday, January 2nd, 2005

Time:7:25 pm.
"It doesn't interest me what you do for a living. I want to know what you ache for, and if you dare to dream of meeting your hearts desire. It doesn't matter to me how old you are. I want to know if you will risk looking the fool for love, for your dreams, for the adventure of being alive. It doesn't interest me what planets are squaring your moon. I want to know if you have touched the center of your sorrow. If you have been opened up by life's betrayls or have become shriveled and closed from fear of further pain. I want to know if you can sit with pain, mine or your own, if you can dance with wildness and let ecstacy fill you to the tips of your fingers and toes without cautioning us to be careful, be realistic, or to remember the limitations of being human. It doesn't interest me if the story you are telling me is true. I want to know if you can betray another to be true to yourself, if you can bear the accusations of betrayl and not betray your own soul. I want to know if you can be faithful and therefore trustworthy. I want to know if you can see beauty even when it's not a pretty day, and if you can source your life from God's presence. I want to know if you can live with failure, yours and mine, and stand on the edge of a lake and shout to the silver light of a full moon. It doesn't interest me to know where you live or how much money you have. I want to know if you can get up after a night of grief and despair, weary and bruised to the bone, and do what needs to be done. It doesn't matter who you are, or how you came to be here. I want to know if you will stand in the center of the fire with me and not shrink back. it doesn't interest me where or what or with whom you have studied. I want to know what sustains you from the inside when all else falls away. I want to know if you can be alone with yourself, and if you truly like the company you keep in the empty moments."
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Thursday, December 2nd, 2004

Time:5:21 pm.
Things I have learned from SUNYIT:

Never live with your boyfriend unless you are married.

Girls are two faced, they change their minds without notice and become volatile without warning.

Eat Pineapple, NOT fish

Your best friends are found in the weirdest places and come from the stickiest and most awkward situations. However, those friends understand you better than those you’ve known since kindergarten.

Your friends will change. Sometimes, you’ll go through them as quickly as laundry.

You will never realize what you had, awful or awesome, until it’s long gone.

Don’t date somebody who wants to boss you around like your father, we’re young, we have the rest of our married lives to be ordered around.

Check Dryers for gum, Check Washers for red socks

Watch television. If your life is more complicated than a prime time soap opera, you need to fix that.

Always Listen

Don’t come to a predominately male campus if you don’t want to be treated like one of the guys.

There will always be that one kid that you can’t reach and it wont be until after he leaves that you find out you were the one he couldn’t reach himself.

Playing Computer games is a legitimate reason to not study

Fun will not come find you in your dorm room; you have to go out and look for it on your own.

If you can’t Identify what is for dinner, there is always the grill or cereal.

Things that you never want to happen usually fall into you lap. And those that you really want, don’t come easy, at times they seem impossible.

Compliments can go a long way.

You will change your major a dozen times but never soon enough to keep on time with your four-year plan.

Never regret something that once made you smile

As soon as you place all your eggs in one basket, the basket is bound to break.

Don’t rely on everyone else.

Don’t try to be someone that you’re not, there are more people on campus to befriend than you think.

It doesn’t matter what you wear when going to get your laundry at 3am. Most people are drunk anyways

Drink heavily until you can’t remember that 40% you got on your last Java Test

Go to Denny’s Often

Don’t give everything you have to one person, He will most likely take it, abuse it, and leave you with nothing at all.

Laugh Until you Cry

It can’t be easy and rewarding all at the same time, It must be difficult to be worth it.

Go to class at least once a week.


Don’t spend your time trying to please or worrying about people that don’t care about you in return.

Make unforgettable friends while you’re here, miss and love them unconditionally when you are gone, But leave quietly when its time.
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Thursday, July 1st, 2004

Time:8:00 pm.
new lj, its time for a new start! Thanks to my inspirees, love you all! if you want the new name, ask me
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Time:5:47 pm.
I know that I have not been perfect. but i was honest with you. i did tell you how i felt and thats all that i could do.
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Wednesday, June 30th, 2004

Time:11:08 pm.
I want you to tell me to my face that you were using me all along.

thats all i want.
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Subject:i think you have things a lil mixed up.
Time:5:23 pm.
If you can make me so miserable now, its only going to get worse and we go. I dont aspire to be the girl that lives in a dark hole because he friend is constantly making her feel stupid and incompetent.

You are not my boyfriend. I do not pretend that you are. I don't want you to be. I'm only around to comfort you or help you when it's convienent for you. until now.
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Subject:piss off!
Time:12:34 am.
I know that you have made me upset in the past, many more times than i would like to think about.
However, tonight, took the cake. Somehow you managed to let me see the whole mess that is you and me in a whole new perspective.
When the day comes when i can finally say that you can no longer make me upset, will be nothing but a relief and i'm anxiously awaiting that feeling until i die.

I'm so tired of the shit from you guys. I've never felt so upset and angry as i do right now, and you two made it all possible.
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Sunday, June 27th, 2004

Time:8:03 pm.
I promised that i was never going to go back to doing that! it was a thing of the past. i promised myself!

but i cant anymore, you didn't keep up your end of the deal and you never cared about mine.

i dont care anymore, i give up alright! i fail at life, i admit it, you can all just leave me alone.
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Saturday, June 26th, 2004

Subject:and if i dont make it, know that, i loved you all along...
Time:12:30 am.
so all in all, things i suppose are going semi-well.

Me and rick are speaking and once and awhile he convinces me that he still likes me.
M&T is a job afterall and it's no so bad since now i seem to be able to find something to do most of the time and nobody really cares what it is as long as i dont appear to be bored, besides its relatively good money and half over!

I was given the chance to switch rooms at sunyit and took advantage of that which is exciting since i get another opportunity to meet new people. My scheldule is both challenging yet spread pretty thin, however i dont have a day off of classes as i did last year but oh well, i dont even care anymore!

Fredonia told me to get on it and transfer in the spring, i'll have most of my gen eds done by then anyways, which is supposed to be great news, however it doesnt feel so great, in fact not at all. i'm gunna miss all my kids so much! i dont know what i would do without them. Even though I'm not confident in anything i do, they have faith in me, in everything, and that alone is why i owe them my life!
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Thursday, June 24th, 2004

Subject:you're always tired of something...something like me
Time:9:42 pm.
On my way for the day
I find no sorrow
Everyday is all the same
There's no tomorrow

And I feel like I feel
Cause it's cold here where you left me

Hey I think someday I might need you somehow
I think I might have loved you
These things I said but you were
A million miles away

On my way for the day
I find my heart is not for taking
And I know it's all but gone
It only served to make me cry
And I feel like I feel
Cause it's black here with your memory

On my way for the day I find no sorrow...

I wish i could be as 'optimistic' as Brett Scallions
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Monday, June 21st, 2004

Time:8:36 pm.
So i manage to completly switch it up for the last semester at sunyit! woot! i'm overwhlmed with excitement.

Takin some interesting classes this time around, I got some genetics, physics, social problems, and good ol calc 2, one more time!

I was even offered the chance to move my room since embit will no longer be living with me in the fall. which was cool since i am now in mohawk, closer to mikey and manny and such.

then its off to FSU for a good fresh start in communications!
i'm excited. met some awesome people there already!
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Sunday, June 13th, 2004

Subject:its just not worth the fight!
Time:12:10 pm.
The weekend was fun, I did enjoy myself even after the struggle of everyone hating me because i left. It was away from here for a while. Helped my decision about fredonia vs. UB, i dont wanna live in buff anymore, i want out, so it aint gunna be UB. I wanna move out of this place once college is over. I'd move now if i could, maybe next summer i'll spend somewhere else.

We chilled at matt's house in the ADK, did the campfire thing, chilled on the dock, climbed a mountain and this scary ladder thing but it was worth it once i got myself to do it. and i spent the whole time with someone that didnt think i was the spawn of satan. all in all i had fun and since nobody agreed with my decision to go, i wont talk about it anymore. but it was good for me, i needed it!!

as for other stuff,
rachel, i am sorry, i could have just told you how i felt at the time, but instead i let it boil and then got so angry over it. i'm sorry

and you kid, i dont know what to say, its obvious that we cant get along, you have a problem with me and thats okay. when are we just gunna cut our losses and give up? but whenever you'd like you can stop talking shit about me and assuming that i'm gunna go out and get pregnant because i wouldnt say that about you. the more you talk the more i realize how little you really think of me, and i'm not about to stick around for that. i'm sorry for all the shit that happened since we started clawing at each others throats, it really wasnt necessary since it didnt get us anywhere. i really am sorry.
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Tuesday, June 1st, 2004

Time:6:28 pm.
a break.

thats a step in the right direction i think.
except when its time to talk, i dont know what to say.

you wiped my tears got rid of all my fears
why did you have to go?
guess it wasn't enough to take up some of my love
cause guys are so hard to trust

Did you think that i was gonna give it up to you this time
did you think that it was something i was gonna do and cry
don't try to tell me what to do
don't try to tell me what to say
your better off that way
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Saturday, May 29th, 2004

Time:7:40 pm.
so everything is about payback. everything has to be fair.
i did this for X amount of days so you have to do the same back for X amount of days. talk about holding grudges...
just forget it and move on, no wonder we cant do anything.
well rick what about all the days i spend angry, upset, and crying. are you gunna put in the same amount of time because your not being very fair if you dont...

i'm dine with it all, when you wanna chill and talk about stuff not pertaining to the past i'm all for it. if not, i'm sry but i cant live in the past forever and if thats the case, i gotta stop waiting around for you and this fabulous relationship that we once had to come back and move on with my life.
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Subject:i may have made it rain....
Time:5:15 pm.
44 days left of work...but it will end eventually...i'm just waiting for that.

so i dont think it can be fixed. its gone too far. there is absolutly no good feelings involved. its just something to do it seems. i'm just there for entertainment and favors. i dont wanna be around for that anymore. i've had enough of this shit. its not my fault and its not yours...but i'm tired of it. we should have given up long ago cuz obviously saving this is at the bottom of your list of things to do.

and its great that ya'll wanna help but really cant do shit. and if you really wanna tell me that its my fault or that i let it happen...then i dont need you around
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Time:1:57 pm.
i think its just time...
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Wednesday, May 26th, 2004

Subject:i am lost without you, i cannot live at all...
Time:12:08 am.
i've decided that i am truly unhappy with most aspects of my life...work makes me panic, i dont like feeling like i'm useless and stupid and i cant even motivate myself to learn about networks and servers because i dont care at all.
my family...my mom wont talk to me, my dad trys to comunicate but you can tell hes upset that his daughter is so unhappy and it shows.

my relationships...are lacking in something. i feel like an extra...somebody to be thrown aside when not needed. i'm sorry that i couldn't follow the movie, and i'm sorry that i like hugs and kisses before i leave so that i actually feel important...that i'm not just there for your entertainment

at this point i'm just waiting for my life to end
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Monday, May 24th, 2004

Time:9:22 pm.
so not only did i have the worst day...rick hates me.
like on his bad day i pushed about money...hes pushin about space...

i give up...
thank you mom for makin me stay at suny one more semester...i love to be tortured.
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Subject:it keeps gettin worse as we go
Time:2:05 am.
so i've heard that fredonia is an incredible school...kinda excited to go but scared that this major, my dream major is gunna lead me absolutly nowhere in life.

emily isnt comin back to school so i dont know what i'm staying for.

i wanna tell the world about transferring to fredonia and how cool the school is. the highlight of my day is visiting the website so i can pretend i dont go to sunyit anymore. but nobody seems to wanna listen to me talk about my new school.

i want someone to be excited for me...i wanna go back to right after graduation...pretend i didnt pick the wrong school, pretend me and rick wernt having the problems that we are having. i wanna get a real hug when we leave instead of us walking away.

im sick of the shit with my friends, with peace love and harmony...with everything.
i'm sick of always bein the one with no stories to tell...i'm sick of being miserable all year round when all my friends get to go back to their fun filled lives in the fall forgettin about everything.

i've been bawling for hours...i have to wake up for work soon and all i want is a hug...

And everytime I try to fly
I fall without my wings
I feel so small
I guess I need you baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, you're haunting me
I guess I need you baby

I may have made it rain
Please forgive me
My weakness caused you pain
And this song is my sorry

i dont want to go back there...
i just cant
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